Ability

I am entering a season where I don't really care. The things that meant so much to me are...negotiable. I used to want to be married desperately, but lately I don't really care. I want children, I know that but right now it is not a priority. Sometimes it is difficult being around other families, where they are happily married or at least in a monogamous relationship, and have babies to take care of. It is difficult because I want children very badly. Sometimes I doubt, seriously doubt, there is anyone out there for me. I do not say this because of lack of self-esteem. I say this because I am so different. I am considered odd or unique among my own friends. It takes a special man to appreciate uniqueness...and I haven't found one yet who can appreciate mine, one who is attracted to me. Despite these things, I am not overly concerned with a mate.

I am more focused on being who God has created me to me. GRACE=the divine ability to DO and to BE all that God has called us to be. It's not just about doing, it's about being. I am concentrating on BEING. I do most everything a good Christian should do...but I want to BE everything God wants me to be.